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黄先生说，

我不是那种人，

多么希望我是,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

你好，我是矛盾的女人！

a story about her.

Tomoro is my final exam, but i cannot concentrate...
and i think of something, a story about  Bitter gourd.




i hate bittergourd, so much, so so much....

But one day, she told me that, she used to hate bitter-gourd too..
but until one day, she broke up with her first boyfriend,
who used to be relative of bitter-gourd..
after that day, she love to eat bitter-gourd,
she eat bitter-gourd, maybe to proof that she does not afraid to bitter-gourd.

she is strong, she hold herself up,
but the strong feeling to him is still there,
He is a shadow that will never go...
she hate him, so she eat the bitter-gourd.....
maybe she want him to get lost from her mind,

i try to understand her feelings, and i eat the bitter-gourd...
is so bitter, in my mouth, and in my heart..
you feel bitter i know,
and bitter-gourd is bitter i know,
but my dear, after u swallow, it is nothing.....

let him go, he is just a pass,
just like the time, that will never come back for anyone..........
don't live in the pass, it will only tutoring you..

my dear, accept the truth, accept now and your future life...
you will know the happiness that you never feel before.....
i want you to have the happiness, just like what i have now..

Please my dear,

i love you and i can eat bitter-gourd now too i think. : )

it

i should put "it" down!

i think i can do it if "it" disappear from my life..

i should stop looking for you,

i think i can, because you are so close yet so far,

i should forgot you,

but at least let me remember you were in my life AND in the deepest of my heart :)

and one more time i promise to myself

i will stop finding chance to see "it"

i swear :')

i know,

i loved you.

C.F.DAY

i miss him.

i hate him.

i am not happy today.

i feel so lonely today.

i am empty.

i feel like talk to another person.

i stopped.

complicated feeling.

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if something happen now, how?

my fault? or his?

cousin bro marry

my cousin bro marry! hehe......

and my job was take care of all the kids!

damn tired de lo!!!! one by one go toilet, i no need eat jor!

2011 hatyai trip!

every year my mom will bring us there,

to sembahyang~~~~~~@@

is quite scary, and she is just stand in front of me!

i bought sliper for my bro and boyfriend, and myself.

bought a lot of thing at there~~~~ damn cheap leh~

i love thailand's drinksss!!!!!

siong's bday

yeong yee siong birthday!

we go korean cuisine!

close eye siong with sharyl

siong er~~~ happy bday~

cannot wait for eat!

let me show u all ah siong's little kid photo!

very cute right?????

enenenenenenen!!! i agree with u all lo~

very cuteeeeeeeeeeeee lo!

no need thank you for my sharing lar!

you re welcome lar!

one day trip with my family

went to sekencan with my family and my mom's student

we do our own batik!

my aunt and her kids!

my father make this for me! ^^

empty bus! hahahhaa!

2nd from bf

the second time of my boy friend celebrate my bday!

one erm......... surprise!

is a shit inside a heart!

he love me!

i love him too! mua~

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my darling boy friend bought new phone, HTC sensation beats XL!
u know what! I love it! So I decide to buy a galaxy NOTE to fight with him! LOL!
I mean if I could afford! Give me two months! I want the S.G.NOTE!

Last year my bf bought me a lot of stitch!

And my bro just bought me a little key chain because he broke my bear bear key chain!

LOL! Is not a nice thing but ok lar! Love it also lor!

something like tis larr~~~~~^^

the eye make by paper de! weird~

I am in love with cartoon recently, imagine I watched two seasons of pokemon at home,

and the new episode of conan, and blah blah blah! A lot!

The sixth season of the GOSSIP GIRL, it make me sick! I din mean sick to it!

It really make me sick! I headache after watched that funny drama!

Is more complicated compare to last time!

I feel like to write a Chinese word to the director of that drama! (服)

that drama is just talking about few rich girls and boys, they are too free and nothing to do,

so they plan to find out someone invisible in life!

They spent a lot of time and money on it, on the way they find, they kena themselves! Woohoo!

Then final how I dunno, but is really super complicated to their relationship!

He love her, she love him, he love another one! Wow! I dunno who love who! @@

i will try my best not to watch it if i can! lol~