complicated mood

i have so many thing to write today,
but only can write the thing that i still remember:))

----today yeeyin n eilleen work with me
i feel happy for it^^
i make up for them too...love them.....

----today i feel pressure,cause a girl that very good,
told me that cosmetic world is not that easy i think....
everyone is in selfish thinking,a naive kid have to be kful..
if i still playplay like wat i did today,
scare i will be bend by the FM...

----today i realize that,i m a very negative girl...
my thinking is 100% negative toward LOVE...
so i decided to throw away the negative
and become positive Albee..
Albee or not Albee, thats the question...

----today i wrote something in my little notebook
i m going to traslate into my broken english
and write here...
I m very happy that i can make u happy indirectly..
although i will not love u anymore,but dun worry...
u will be in a corner that hide in my deep heart......
I think it was my illusion...because i could smelt u....
terrible feeelingzz........

----Mr.Kelvin will get his whole space n time....
because i decided not to disturb him anymore.....
excluded i need him to fetch me....
because yeeyin say,ppl in love need privacy...
so i m trying to control myself to less disturb him...
i hope u can happy ever after....love you,B.

----Today,i have a conversation with miss Vivian..
After it, she give me a suggestion and i m going to on it..
accept the HIM who i like him 50%........
waiting for the HIM appear in my life...........

----i m so care about my LOVE,
because i had heard so many love story today...
they have so many romantic life....
how about me?why don't i just have a life like them?
they are so happy.........
so...Albee,u have to be positive!!!!^^

----i want to study,i don't want to work..
PR or event management?
TW or MY?

---- i want to be a cool dressing girl...
1stly must start from hair 1st......
curly or straight?
rebonding 1st or dye 1st?
who can tell me the answer????

----i found a man that is a good man...
i know i can love him very much..
but i stopped myself that day...and i destroy it tooo..
NOW,i feel very regret,hope he will come back to me..
As Shaine said,
if he is not urs,he is not going to be urs..
if he is urs, nobody can stopped it...
the important thing is u have try ur best to get ur love.....
shaine,u make me awake!!!!love u so much:)) thank you..

----i love a phone in branded CSL,
and it is pink in colour and only in RM200...
i dunno wat is CSL,
then today i only know it is a MY brand....
still considering want buy onot.....
love it because it is cute....

----everytime when i break, i will go ss Zen...
because i have my new friend there....
i love them so much......
i hope i can work there with them....
a place that have no pressure no big rules..
only happy n crazy there.......
but, they are full...cannot hire any parttime anymore...
feel so sad bout it:(( but nvm...
i still can break over there, with a FREE greentea..

----i want to watch Hai Pai Tian Xin..
But i cant download....computer sot jor.....
i want to watch arrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!

---- i am waiting for my salary...
then i will be shopaholic at least once a week...
i love to be shopaholic.....
set my new hair, buy clothes, high tea, movie, sing k...
oh my....i just cant wait for it!!!!!!!
8 days more...
then i can run away from this horrible G brand...
and i wont come back anymore. i Swear :)))